I think I may end up taking my life. I am so tired of the hurt and pain I deal with every year for the last four years. I am tired of being scapegoated by my family and the only time they recognize me as an adult is when they want to put me down because of what I don't have. I am tired of never seeing any hope. I am just tired of living and not having my voice heard...not even God cares. I am going to find the courage to take my life because I am just tired of feeling like this. I am tired of people hurting me and acting like their words and actions are my fucking responsibility. I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore.