I have finally decided to end it all. I made a promise till Death do us part and I plan on keeping that promise so I have no other option at this time. It's been a week since I decided to end it after finding out that the past 25 years of my life have all been a waste of time as far as my marriage is concerned. My daughter is an Adult now and has her own life and is no longer dependent on me so I feel less guilt about leaving her. I have at least taken this week to prepare for the end. To make sure that everything is in place and there are no questions left to be answered. I will finally be at peace and no longer in pain. I hope everyone here finds a way to live on.