I don't really know why but my suicideal thoughts are becoming so much more prominent i have even taken the liberty of buying the alcohol and sleeping pills for when i try to overdose. I am just fed up of everything i hate life so much i feel no joy, no happiness, no love i feel nothing but pain, misery and suffering each and every single day i just can't take it anymore i hate this life I hate it so much I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Why can't i feel happines why i can't i meet someone why am i doomed to be alone, to wallow in my own self pity and feel nothing but misery. I mean i try to be a good person i treat people with respect and kindness I am chivalrous towards women but it just seems to be like that saying that nice guys finish last. Why is the world so cruel and life so shit. What am I to do?