Im sat at work looking around everyone seems to be getting on with 'work stuff' chatting laughing, im sat here thinking would it really make a difference if i wasnt here and i can honestly say it wouldnt. If i was gone it would make no difference to these people. Everyone else seems normal except me im i dont want to be normal i dont know what i want i feel like crying but i wont il sit here quietly and watch these people pertend im fine smile and laugh with them. Whilst inside i want to die i want to be taken away from but no one would understand. I dont think anyone would actually give a shit anyway most people have there own stuff to deal with so why would any one give a shit how i feel. i feel so fuckin useless i hate myself.