I just joined here because I've been having suicidal thoughts. I have been for quite some time now (three years) , but I haven't really attempted anything. I decided that if I ever do attempt it, I will be successful so I want to make sure that it is what I really want if/when the time comes. Being an atheist, it's hard to give purpose to my life. I wish I could believe that there is a god and that he sends good people to heaven but I don't really believe that. I was born and raised Jewish and I even would do exceptionally well in sunday school and such. I started to become atheist about 4 years ago. Before joining, I browsed the forum only to find some posts which inevitably ended in peoples suicide. It's crazy to me to think about how I am looking at the words of somebody who doesn't exist and could very well have spent their last 5 minutes on this site letting everyone know of this fact. It's kinda sad, but at the same time, it is relieving. I believe that some people should commit suicide. People are people are people. Nobody knows anybody else better than they know themselves. Period. If you feel that you want to end your life, end the suffering, for whatever reason, then you should be able to. With this said, you better make sure that it's what you want because you obviously won't get a second chance once you are successful. Sometimes I don't even like how some people give support for others. When you feel depressed (that is, suicidal depressed), then sometimes I hate hearing the whole "it will get better" spiel. If somebody were to say that to me, I would know that they are obviously saying that because they feel obligated. Why can't people just say the truth. Say that it will only get better if you put effort to make it better. It will not get better on it's own and you are a fool to think otherwise. For me, I don't have the motivation to make it better. I do want it to, of course, otherwise I wouldn't be in this forum. The problem is that when you have no motivation to want to change, then there is just emptiness with no chance of fulfillment. That is how I am feeling right now.