To give a quick background about me, I have been struggling with depression for years. The last year its been hidden. Only one person knows and its one of my teammates. I compete with a local club. I go to practice, give it my all and smile and appear happy. Reality is though that I'm struggling to the point that I'm barely able to cope. I don't have a good relationship with family as they play into the depression. Recently it's been having an impact on my performance and I'm wanting to tell my coach what is going on. I feel like he feels that my recent snappy and resistant attitude is just due to a poor attitude. We're also expected to commit to attending a certain number of practices per week in advance but I find it hard to promise to be there if the depression really hits that day and I don't want him to think it's just because I'm being lazy and disrespectful; up until now I've only missed one practice but ended up struggling during a few of those practices. I feel like if i told him what's going on I might be able to attend those practices if I had he support. Am i doing the right thing by talking to him??? I train hard and have the best attendance record at the club and i don't believe in excuses but to me depression isn't an excuse and some understanding and support is needed. Sorry if this doesn't make sense, I'm feeling a little out of sorts tonight.