attached to them

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by hopeless13, May 27, 2011.

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  1. hopeless13

    hopeless13 Well-Known Member

    i know most of u tell me to throw out the
    xxxxxxxxx he gave me.
    for some reason i just can't seem to do it
    i guess i feel like he fed into my suicide attempt
    i guess all i want to do at this point is sleep
    so i guess tht is why i am hanging onto them
    to use them later to sleep .......
    hard to explain it, it's like they are mismerising
    like i am attracthed to them.
    i know , i probably sound stupid
    i dumped all of them out in my hand
    imagined what wld happen
    but then put them back in the bottle
    til tomorrow or Saturday
    not sure on which day yet.
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I have truly been where you are describing...probably one of the more difficult thing I did was give them to my therapist...a gift to both of us...and yes, and mourned its loss for weeks...and have lived 3 years without reconstructing was my safety net, and it took a leap of faith, I did not know I had in me, to walk away from it...please PM me if I can provide any support...big hugs, J
  3. hopeless13

    hopeless13 Well-Known Member

    how do u pm ??
  4. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    click on her username and then on send a private message. a new screen will open up and you type in your title and message, it goes privately to sadeyes

    i also gave up my stash of sleeping pills. it took me a month to do it, and after i did i cried solidly for two weeks. i felt like my safety blanket had been taken from me.

    but it was the safest thing to do. be brave. get rid of the pills. you don't need them. you have us.
  5. hopeless13

    hopeless13 Well-Known Member

    you had to give up your sleeping pills too??
    so u understand ?
    and tks for telling me how to PM
  6. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    ah yes understand the security blanket thing..

    better not to have them in the house at all though

    do you think the doc would give you enough to end your life?
    they usually don't...
  7. hopeless13

    hopeless13 Well-Known Member

    i don't think the doc wld do it purposely no
    but i don't think he was thinking.
    (120 pills wld do the trick for me)
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