Am I the only one who doesn't want to get rid of her SH scars? For two years they told me what was reality what was a dream, they gave me a place to SH so I didn't expand across my entire body, they told people that I wasn't ok even if I couldn't speak. they became a part of me, the strongest part. They represent the strong addiction I have to SH now, they showed people a tiny glimpse of how I was feeling, they showed that I was resourceful, that I would do anything so I could function normally, they were there for me when no one else was, they and SH were what brought me comfort and lulled my to sleep when people would just walk past, watching as I created them and just acting like they didn't see anything. Now they also represent my strength. They were, and still kind of are, what I would base my reality off of. because they told me every day that a huge tragedy had happened, at first I used them saying "The day I wake up and my arm doesn't look like it's been hacked apart, that is the day that they will be alive and this will have just been a nightmare" well I never woke up, and they help me cope with that. My scars help me, almost as much as the SH helped me. They mean so much to me, and no one understands why I cant just let them go. I know that they are like a branding, barring me from a completely normal life, and I hear that if I was mentally healthy I wouldn't want the reminders of my painful past carved into my skin. But I just cant bring myself to let them go.