well i sure as hell aint gonna do that again. i didnt expect to feel ok after what i done but i didnt expect to feel so bad either, and be subjected to going through my whole life to complete strangers at the hospital. anyway it has been a wake up call, the possibility of what could have happened and may still depending on the blood results. i have enough to think about etc without doing stupid things like that, so the top and bottom of it is;
complete new start, concentrate on my loved ones and that special person. fight on harder than ever, and most importantly get my life to where im content with everything. and today i feel good, i feel good about whats ahead. :biggrin: