So this weekend I attempted to re-connect with an ex-friend but I ended up getting rejected for my troubles. What's the f'ing point? Once a shithead, always a shithead, right? I just don't get it. I'm trying! I really am! I am trying to adopt the outlook on life that bearing grudges against other people is just childish and stupid and I wanted to just drop it and say at least I tried to do the right thing. I know I shouldn't have expected much to come of it but DAMN! Am I just too stupid for even thinking that some people have the capacity to change? Is that it? Should I just give up trying with people? When is any of this going to pay off for me? I got fed up of waiting for crap to just magically happen for me so I wanted to make the effort myself. I needn't have bothered, it seems. It's sad and I'm a little bit angry and upset for it. Particularly because there are people who have done worse to the person in question and been welcomed back with open arms...not that I did anything wrong to begin with anyway. He's always had an attitude problem and I got sick of it. Well, the one saving grace in all this is that at least I didn't explode and let my temper get the better of me. Surprised I managed to keep calm. In response I just said "Well, can't say I didn't try to be the bigger man. If that's how you choose to live in anger, then that's you but I learned a while back to stop with all the childish shit." Wished him good day and took the hint. I guess this is what happens when you try to do good things. Has anyone else experienced anything similar? How do you manage to keep going even if you keep getting knocked back for it? How long before it pays off? This is why I hid from life in the first place...too much pain involved. Dunno if I can be assed with this anymore.