For years now I always gave myself a time line before I turned 20 years old. Days on end I thought about what day to end my life, I had a suicide kit for a couple years too. Recently, I did attempt but actually got caught on my own terms. I called a distress line in hoping they would talk to me about it as they did the night before. But they ended up contacting their supervisor who sent police and ambulance when I had only taken a couple t*****l. I stayed in a psych ward for 3 and a half weeks. I've been out two weeks now. But this past Sunday I called the crisis line (something that is extremely more professional apparently) and I said I was suicidal and had a plan and access to the plan hoping they would just talk to me in that frame of mind for a while. But they sent the police right away. I was angry and resisted and also resisted actually going up to the psychiatric ward again with the security guards. Its funny because I know everyone thinks this is attention-seeking. My psychiatrist even said last time I was at the ward that when I attempt again its going to be for attention. All I've learned is to never call anyone or talk to anyone when you feel like or have attempted to kill yourself because they take that really seriously. They will send police or an ambulance. One day this year it will be something serious and I won't call any help.