My older sister called last night to tell me our favorite aunt died that morning. She was 96.5 years old and she was failing this past year, so it wasn't completely unexpected, but it's still such a gut-wrench. She had been a marriage/sex therapist long before it was popular (think Dr. Ruth), but she had a humor and wisdom that was unmatched. She would share some stories with us around the dinner table making them interesting and funny. My favorite uncle, her husband, adored her - we all did. My sister went back to school to become a marriage/sex therapist because of our aunt. She'd been speaking with her on the phone every day for a long time. I wasn't quite as close over these last years, but she was always very special to me. I'll miss her, a light has gone out in this world and one just went on on the other side! My other sister, who had just turned 60 last year, died after going through a brain tumor and chemo/radiation, then pneumonia, a blod clot, and finally a hole in her instestine from all the frelling drugs and that's what killed her. I spent a month with her in December 2008 while she had her cancer treatments, which she got through really well. Then in January 2009, she started getting sick with the other stuff and never fully recovered. She died at the end of June (I'd arrived Memorial Day weekend and stayed till the end), a few days after Michael Jackson as a matter of fact. It was a brutal but precious experience. I miss her so much! She had made a video of an interview she did with our aunt about my aunt's life. I have it on DVD. Both of them are gone now, but I'm so glad I have this from them. What a treasure! During the conversation with my sister last night, I broke down and told her how depessed I am, though I hadn't intended to, especially right then, but it just spilled out cuz I couldn't keep it in anymore. I didn't mean to dump it on her when I know she was so upset about our aunt. She asked if I was suicidal and I told her the truth, yes, and I think she freaked a little cuz she said she just wouldn't be able to handle losing me, too, after all this death this past year, and the ongoing mess of her divorce. I told her about this forum and she thought that was good. I guess I'll have to reassure her somehow that I won't do anything, at least for now, though I can't promise her or anyone that would always be the case. Anyway, just wanted to share this with you all.