Do you avoid passive suicidal ideation contemplation in order to prevent yourself from becoming more suicidal? I find myself getting much more emotional when I dwell on these thoughts which leads to the begining of me making plans. This is an issue I need to address in order to overcome these thoughts but I am not sure I am strong enough. I have avoided this subject for awhile now. I lost my therapist of two years and the new one, while insightful and intelligent, is still too new for me to trust. Later this week I will see her for only the second time.