I'm pretty sure i have avoidant personality disorder. If anyone else has it or knows how to deal with it, i would love to hear your thoughts. I'm turning 18 in june, and this issue has caused me to be extremely afraid of any kind of social interaction my entire life. I have pretty much only one friend and it's only because she is the same way as me. No one else understands me at all. I think about suicide often. I don't want to do it but i don't feel excited about living my life at all and i feel there's no purpose to life.