When you are as insecure as I am, sleeping can be a daunting thing. I can be so terribly tired, and yet I cling to my phone and tell myself just one more episode of this, or one more swipe of instagram; anything to avoid those long moments that pass before I lose consciousness and drift into a fitful sleep. I've mentioned this in an earlier thread, I'm afraid to sleep. I'm afraid of my dreams. They're not night terrors as such, but dreaming of flowers and sunshine then waking up to the real world where somedays even breathing is a task can be so depressing. So I'm mumbling here, so I don't have to go to sleep. So I don't have to dream about anything.