Its been awhile since ive posted a rant...i've been generally happy, i have someone that loves me very much and i love him with all my heart. ITonight I was pushed to the edge, i took on way too much nd it's my own fuckin' fault. I jst want to cave in and let it all swallow me. Just from eveyr direction it cme...im tired my head fckin hurts, i wanna be numb....forever. i <3 u if u r readin ths and im srry im not stronger...im sorry im weak and im sorry i worry u.