The reason I ask this is because it often interferes with my recovery. It's because the church people always say that babies that die at birth, go directly to Heaven. I find that belief hurtful because it makes me think that all those babies went to Heaven without suffering at all--while those of us who survive on Earth have to suffer.
I'm doing alright nowadays because I want to stay alive. But sometimes stressful woes can upset me, at which time the default mechanism of suicide comes into play, and that religious belief can make it worse by making it much harder to recover. In that way, the religious belief can be hurtful, even life-threatening. Because it makes me think why I should stay alive and suffer when all those babies went directly to Heaven without suffering even one minute. So that religious belief constantly gnaws at me. And, as you can see, it interferes with my recovery. It could even be life-threatening if it provokes suicide. The problem is also that the particular religious belief is so widespread, so I think often about it.
How do I cope with this? And do any others of you have that same suicidal-difficulty with that religious belief? As I said, I ask this question because the belief always interferes with my recovery. I would greatly appreciate comments.
I'm doing alright nowadays because I want to stay alive. But sometimes stressful woes can upset me, at which time the default mechanism of suicide comes into play, and that religious belief can make it worse by making it much harder to recover. In that way, the religious belief can be hurtful, even life-threatening. Because it makes me think why I should stay alive and suffer when all those babies went directly to Heaven without suffering even one minute. So that religious belief constantly gnaws at me. And, as you can see, it interferes with my recovery. It could even be life-threatening if it provokes suicide. The problem is also that the particular religious belief is so widespread, so I think often about it.
How do I cope with this? And do any others of you have that same suicidal-difficulty with that religious belief? As I said, I ask this question because the belief always interferes with my recovery. I would greatly appreciate comments.