its been two weeks since ive been here. i went into hospital for a minor plastic surgery... was in hospital for 4 days... ive been home for a week now, and i just dont know whats going on with me. i feel so down and depressed. ugly. worthless. apparently general anesthesia can make you feel 'down' , but its been 10 days since the surgery, it should all be out of my system by now. yet im still so tearful and i hate it. i hate the fact that im losing control of my feelings, that i want to cry. i feel so childish. so weak and pathetic. and of course i hate my puffy, swollen, bruised face, and feel like i will be this ugly forever. i know i need to get myself together, grow up, and deal with it. toughen up. but i cant. i just cant. pathetic.