So it's been quite a while since I was last on these boards. I managed to lose over 100 lbs and I even got a gf for awhile. Things were looking up. I moved across the country to do an internship in hopes that the experience will make getting a job easier. I even loved it for the first month and a half. But now I just want to leave and if I do, it kills any hope that I could ever get a job in my field which I suffered through university for. I just don't feel like I'm repsected at all here. I'm a bitch for them to work as hard as they can and I get no reward for my efforts. I'm passed over for chances to work with certain animals for reasons they then ignore for another person. I have gotten no chances to be involved in certain events while others who don't work as hard or have just gotten here do. I needed a recharge when it comes to telling myself why I deal with all the hard work and dirt and injuries and seeing an animal I helped get back to health is what would do that, but even that got taken away from me. I busted my ass for 2 and a half months, working and not complaining that I wasnt being given more animals to look after, while others who just got here and aren't even staying as long, were given them instead. Then finally I get more, just to be told that because I got them I couldn't go for my animals release. And just to top it off, some spoiled bitch gets to go for it because she's incompetant enough, that of course she has the free time. I just don't know what to do. Everything I've ever tried to do, I've been complemented on how hard I work and that I'm trusted for jobs but I get treated like shit. I get nowhere. I just keep failing and I'm so tired of being a loser. I want this life to end. I'm just so tired of giving it my all and it not meaning anything.