So I'm back on this site again. I started looking through my old posts. I know that I have been a lot more suicidal in the past. A lot more emotional also. I just don't really feel anymore. Not sad or happy, not full of regret or lonely. I feel empty. Just calm nothingness. Can't sleep. I'd say I was just lying hear with my thoughts but, just lying here no feelings or deep thoughts. Not wondering why, just a blank white sheet of paper.