I stepped away from the forum for a while. I'm not sure why. My depression hadn't lessened. My broken leg has manifested into a worse muscle injury that'll probably require surgery. So, with that, I'll be stuck out of work for longer. Stuck in my own head. Stuck not sleeping. Stuck.... Even if I could go back to work, I don't know what I'd do. I have skills. But my body and mind are failing me. I just turned 34 and labor has ruined my body. It's put me on course to be addicted to pills. It's my fault though. I'm so tired. I want to sleep. But I don't. I stay up 23 hours a day. I've tried and failed at running my own business. Over the last few days, I've seen others pass me by. There's not much worse than feeling like I've given something everything. Ruined relationships, pushed my marriage to its breaking point. Addicted myself to medication, only to be passed up by a copy. An inferior product. I think about what a failure I am all the time.