I used to come on here everyday for a long time. But then I started to finally feel better. Started to feel somewhat 'normal'. Stopped cutting. But then I started up again. And stopped again. I was feeling hopeless. Then I got a job and things were looking up. But lately Ive been having racing thoughts again. I cut yesterdayfor the first time in months. And the urge is so strong. I feel so lost. I opened myself up to someone and he let me down. I can't get my mind off of it. Off of why im so unloveable. So unworthy. I need help. Someone too actually listen.