I have been thinking which happens alot... infact I can't control what I think about or not, can't control how long I can connecrate or think about things. My mind goes back and forth... but it's strange.. it's very deep... Almost in a sense that I am litteraly going from one time and back and again and again.. This morning when I went out to wait for the transportation to my appt and I noticed all the snow out side.. inches and inches.. and I went back years to the age 15.. My grandmother baught me a small house to make sure I would have a place because she doubted I would be able to work that much in the future.. And one day I woke up because I couldn't breathe and I couldn't see anything because of all the smoke.. I got to the door and the wood in the door was swelling.. I finally got it open and the old gas heater had exploaded.. I was in shorts a shirt and bare feet.. there was 10 inches of snow on the groud.. I walked thru the snow for about a block or so.. and called the valanteer fire people and interesting.. About half the house burnt before I got out... if only I stayeed in there another 10 minites or so I would have went down in the house.. But when I went back to that, it was like I was there again but not exactly like I flashback... :unsure: Anyone have problems with that type thing? I know my problems are because of Borderline Personality Disorder.