Well I went through a better period and now I have dropped again it seems like a vicious cycle and I am losing. Seems the stress of working and going to school full time. Then the job field I want to get into there is nothing. I feel the end is getting nearer because I am writing a letter that will be found when my wife is going through my belongings. I am making sure when I am gone she will have enough to make sure she is able to take care of things. I feel like I am losing this battle. I came out and told my wife I am ready to end it and she said I need to talk to someone. I am not sure if that would work.