I thought I was finally over this and that I would be okay. I was able to stop myself from hurting myself for two weeks. That probably doesn't sound long but it was the longest had gone in a while until yesterday. I had a breakdown yesterday and I hurt myself pretty badly. I didn't want to live anymore. I feel like I'm stuck. Sometimes I believe I can beat this but other times I think "why even try?" I've been doing it for 8 years and counting so I wonder if I can really recover.