I just ccame home from my Dad's funeral. I was up in Canada for 5 days, with Family. In the time I was there, hardly any of my family even noticed I was there. Did not matter if I joined a conversation or not. My brother however, he got the royal treatment, the night dad died my aunt went to him hugged him, me however, she just looked at me for a second asked if I was ok, I nodded. She turned back to my brother. I..was..so..pissed!!!! I felt liek I meant nothing to my own family, particularly the aunt who I loved so much when I was little. I wanted..so bad..to blow up on her. But with teh events, and in respect for my dad I didn't, it was so damn hard not to though. This very same thing happened the day of the funeral. I felt liek I was not even part of my own family, I even noticed she looked at me differently then my brother. During all of this, I look at myself and have to point out the only reason is cause of how due to myseisures I have not been able to do a lot in my life, my brother however. Good job, house, wife. This should not matter at all! Family is supposed to be family no matter what. Its things liek this, that has made me so damn anti-social among my own family, and more communicating to my friends, who hate hearing things like this, I have no damn support emotionally irl, its just me enduring everything. Like earlier this year, in February, my best friend stopped talking to my and my GF at the time (who ia m over) dumped me. I am so damn tired of it, I am to the point I do not know what to do.