I have no friends. Well, I talk to a couple people at school, but that's it. Before last week, I hadn't gone anywhere in months, except for school, and a couple places with my brother. See, two weeks ago, I got an interview for a job. I was so glad, I thought it was like my ticket to happiness, if I got that job. To sum up three paragraphs I originally wrote, I smoked two days before the test, because I thought I hadn't go the job, but then found out that a new position opened. I knew there was no way I could pass the test. Days before, I had prayed to god over and over that I pass. Somehow, I did. I am not religious at all. I never attended church or anything(except once with a friend), but I pray to god a lot, because for some reason I have to believe he is there. And after all these times that he has not helped one bit(or so it seems), I feel like he had some affect on that test, because there is no way I could have passed. But when I prayed, I said I would be happy forever after that. I said it was all I needed. Damn was I wrong. Whenever something good happens, no matter what it is, I still end up back here. On this forum. Last time I was on here says Feb 12th. Before then, probably sometime in January. So, it's been a while, but I can't help but come back here. I can't make friends, I can't do anything, I'm not good at anything. I can see my self going away. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal. But to others, it will be. I just want to get it over with already.