Looks like I'm going back to hospital again soon, saw my doctor yesterday and he decided after a half hour talking to me some time in hospital and more ECT's are the way to go Really hoping my god awful landlord will let me put off moving for a couple of months so I can get this out of the way. I'm really at the end of my reserves, so stressed I can't stop shaking, and when I'm not shaking I'm in tears or a blind panic. I have no idea how I'm getting through the days right now, just wish I could curl up in a ball and make the world go away. Just wish everything wasn't so difficult, if I can't get the extra time I need I have to find a place by tomorrow or I'm going to get out of hospital and be homeless. Not helping matters is I got a call from my dad this morning to tell me the work we had lined up for tomorrow isn't happening for another week and I'm relying on that for my bond on a new place. Its like I'm trapped in a nightmare where everything that can possibly go wrong is actually happening. I wish I wasn't me, that I was anyone else but me, even my doctor said (exact words) 'Sucks to be you right now huh?'