I am sadly, back on this forum after an absence of a while. I am having some serious problems lately, I don't have the energy to go into them right now, but lots of crap has been happening in my life, and I just want to give up. I spent hours today online looking for information on different suicide methods, weighing the pros and cons. I think I have settled on a method, something nice and painful because I deserve to suffer. I'm not going to do it tonight though, I'm gong to go to bed. Tomorrow I will try to find the strength to go on living, now I just need a break.