So hit rock bottom the other week and tried to OD didn't work just ended up in hospital for the best part of the day. I got with my girlfriend when she was already pregnant and raised the child as my own as she wanted nothing to do with the real father. We had been together a year and a half and where engaged as well. Then boom come november I get called into work to be told i'm being made redundant, I then have my girlfriend tell me shes been considering leaving me because things don't seem right in the relationship. She goes up town and then pictures of her over another guy appear on facebook when i ask about it she says "its your own fault you should of come with me". Middle of december she chucks me out saying its over for good i'm away for one night before shes on the phone telling me shes made a big mistake and wants me back. So i come back and we go through christmas like one big happy family then boom shes chucking me out again, I go and stay with relatives in Peterborough and two days later shes seeing if I want to go see her. I travel to see her and find a condom in the bin to which she responds it was a drunken mistake on New Years Eve! again I forgive her and she says she wants me back but wants to live seperately for a couple of months. So i fork out £800 to get a roof over my head to go round yesterday only a week back in Leicester to find on her laptop messages to her two ex boyfriends inviting them round, asking them to come on webcam and see what shes wearing and talking about there sex lives and one even goes as far to say he'll smash me up if I try and get involved with them....yet this girl wanted me back to try and make things work seems like it. So i've shelled out £800 for a week and now all I can think about is leaving altogether I've recently just got a months supply of Citalopram 30mg and got plenty of Nytol all in one which shouldn't be took with anti depressants but i really couldn't give a **** anymore. I'm fed up of feeling like everything is my fault i've been treated like a door mat and to make matters worse £8000 in debt with no job so i really can't go on.