It occurred to me that I hadn't been here for a long time. It occurred to me that maybe I was just a little happier- or sometimes more than a little. I met someone who came into my life from nowhere, we grew close, it made me feel cared for, connected - al of that. And poof - he is gone without explanation. I feel awful - grief for what I lost, even if it was only beginning - and a lot of shame for feeling like an older woman could be attractive enough for anyone. I want to shake these feelings but I can't figure out how. Walking, exercising helps but I do have a little work that comes my way from time to time and now I have something to finish. It ties me to a desk when I can't concentrate, ruminate on what I could have done, said, been to make it better. I feel like such an idiot
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I'm really sorry Ivy100! Hopefully, if & when you're feeling up to it... And you're feeling well (enough to do so) -- should you want or wish for it... that you could once again try - & give it a go? Just in case, as. . . You never know? Maybe you'll find someone else whom you connect with. Perhaps it won't be in the same way (but since that didn't last for long, then maybe that is not such a bad thing?). But perhaps, it could be more long lasting, and fulfilling for you. Again, if that is what you so desire. I'd also understand, however, if it is just too painful, to put yourself out there. And risk feeling vulnerable, and feeling so exposed, after such an experience as this. Here's hoping you heal from this, and recover in fairly short order. And have your previous health restored. Take care, and good luck! 
-mrb.
-mrb.
I'm really sorry Ivy100! Hopefully, if & when you're feeling up to it... And you're feeling well (enough to do so) -- should you want or wish for it... that you could once again try - & give it a go? Just in case, as. . . You never know? Maybe you'll find someone else whom you connect with. Perhaps it won't be in the same way (but since that didn't last for long, then maybe that is not such a bad thing?). But perhaps, it could be more long lasting, and fulfilling for you. Again, if that is what you so desire. I'd also understand, however, if it is just too painful, to put yourself out there. And risk feeling vulnerable, and feeling so exposed, after such an experience as this. Here's hoping you heal from this, and recover in fairly short order. And have your previous health restored. Take care, and good luck! -mrb.[/Q
-mrb.[/Q