I'm back to the same place I was a few years ago. This time with fewer people in my life. I just feel like I'm being punished for wanting to have a good life or even a job that I studied hard for. I've done my fair share of bad things because I'm not perfect and I'm only human. But to be back at this state once again is slowly killing me. I have tried everything to get back on track. And people keep telling me that life will get better but not for people like me. I'm tired of hearing it and every time I try to talk to people they just repeat the same things. I'm sitting here crying on my sofa, watching cartoons at the age of 26 because I have nothing better to do with my life. No one cares enough to reach out to me. I'm not expecting responses from here telling me that things will be ok. I just wanted to let some things out.