You know how hard it is to take your own advice. Talking people out of ODing and then planning to do it yourself. I can't take the thought if losing someone. I swear i die if they die. Its a simple as that. All day I've been wanting to OD and i haven't for someone here. Apparently theres no point anymore. So why put off ODing. I'm not gonna put it off no more. Just gonna do it. Do it enough for the hospital. Get my fecking head checked out while there, still fecking hurting. What the hell, lets see how many pills i can down this time, been a while since i did it. Back to the same old habits. Fuck it.