so yeah. after about 7 years struggling with keeping myself alive ive finally reached a point i thought i was happy. i havent self harmed in a few weeks and i have just got thick red scars on my arms. for the first time today i wore a short sleeved top into college. and this group of chavvy kids were shouting ''FUCKING EMO'' at me i feel shit about myself. and feel like im back where i started on the whole hiding it front. fucking hell. cried for AGES on the bus like a total retard. i hate myself.