Although yesterday, specifically last night plays into a bit how I feel today, the biggest set off right now is just pain. My whole body is just EFFING REVOLTING! Its like it knows something I don't. I'm trying very hard to pay no mind to the little voices but when I am losing hope its that much harder. Today at least is only a dip, Nothing serious but damn, its hard to ignore the pain. I was actually starting to think that I might have a future with less pain, then boom! Couldn't sleep because of pain and my damn feet were hot! I've been freezing all yesterday, last night and this morning but I feel like I have hot pads on my damn feet!! I've managed to get through a couple storms so far this spring with minimal negative repercussions but I guess I can't dodge all of them. It hurts it hurts it hurts.. Damn it hurts. I am so much more afraid of living in this kind of acute pain than I am of death. I want to scream the pain is so bad. Can't do anything about this until I get the kids to school. I have to walk today and I am scared. I have been pretty active for the last few weeks, month or so really and to suddenly feel beyond crippled again is just so damn hard to deal with. I just want the damn pain to stop.