I am experiencing such a bad day. I have a profound sadness that I cannot shake. I am taking my meds, trying coping techniques that I learned in Partial, but nothing is helping me out of this funk. I am off from work today and really trying to get out of this mood. My reactions to people are so fake. I am kind to the store clerk, nice to my neighbors, good with my customers where I work (I am a waiter so I have to be up.) It is so draining. But, sitting here typing out my feelings about my situation helps. I am glad that I found this site. The site even sent me a birthday wish electronically, that made my day. I ususally don't let people know my birthday, I really don't care for the attention. I am so jealous of people that are naturally happy, they have problems too, but don't have to take pills or work at being happy. I am bitter too. I have no faith in things I really belived in: religion, family, friends, our country (USA). I am even guilty about this post. Everything I ever was taught or learned seems to be a lie. One of the things that really gets me down is a sense of what I call "global doom". I see a breakdown in society, people seem so mean. I know that is a wrongful generalization, but it is the way I feel. Maybe things will be better tomorrow, all I can do is hope. If anyone reads this, I thank you. I hope you can see that I am not thinking correctly and it may somehow be helpful to you.