so....i went to see my mom today @ the mental hospital and that was shit!!!!!! I drove 45 min to see her for 20 min. I walk in, she says "hi stranger", i go to give her a hug and she says "NO" and walks away. Then we talked, she started bringing up me wanting to kill myself when i was 15 and how i'm not the daughter she raised and i just couldn't take it. She started making a scene about gods know what, i wasn't around, then she comes back in and blah blah blah keeps talking. I couldn't listen anymore and so i wanted to go play pool with another one of the patients, but i guess my mom and him don't get along. So she went to the nurse and said "our visit is over, can you please tell her to leave." So the nurse came up to me and said "you need to leave now please" and i said "but i want to play pool with him" and she said "no, you have to leave". As i walking out, i said "fuck you" to my mom and just stormed out. Not even getting a hug from her, that was the hardest part ever!!!!!!!!!!!! So tonight, i'm going to get hammered and forget about her. She didn't even want me visiting in the first place, she said "why are you here? i'll call you when i want to see you", which means she wants smokes or food or something. I got so upset that i cried all the way home. :cry: :cry: :cry: