I told my husband last night, "I have everything to be happy about but I am so unhappy." I don't understand why I can't feel happy, joy, things that are good. I feel irritable, sad, annoyed, angry, tired, etc. These feeling has me not wanting to be here anymore. Just tired of living like this. Why can't I find the joys of life? My husband told me last night, "You need sleep before you kill yourself." I tried getting sleep last night and got nightmares to the point of screaming in my sleep. My husband told me in the middle of the night about the screaming. Will I ever get any sleep? And no one is keeping me up. It's like my body won't allow it. I so hate being like this.