I've been looking around here for quite some time now, just reading threads and the replies that are left. I've tried to convince myself that I don't care about what others could say, but I do. I'm just so upset in this moment that I think I don't care. I fear I will be judged and people will dislike me as much as I do myself. I fear they will criticise my actions and lay the blame on me. I feel like I'm being disrespectful. There are many people here who are so strong and brave I feel my story doesn't belong. I constantly battle my thoughts and what I know is right and wrong. I feel disgusting and vile, I feel like a prostitute. At the same time, I know I shouldn't. I was just a child. I don't understand how I can feel this much guilt if I never did anything wrong. I'm sick of how I was betrayed and how I hurt but most of all I'm so angry that somebody can ruin my life even when they haven't been a part of it for years.