Im 23 and im a former Marine and im also into bodybuilding. I work out consistently because it levels me out without having to take medicine. The other day I had to go to the emergency room and they said I have a hernia. Doc said I can't lift anything for a long time and its going to be even longer until my next appt. My life is already extremely difficult because I have huge self esteem issues and im very sensitive. Now I just want to kill myself. I've been strong for so long but now I don't know what to do. All my hard work is going to diminish cuz I can't work out. I feel fucking worthless.