I like to read through these forum and think about what kind of post I would write. But today i realized that i really don't want to comment on anybody else's post. I have no kind words to give or anything else. In real life i behave the same way. For me conversations with other people are about what kind of things i say (are they funny, interesting etc.) and what the other person says is meaningless. The only thing i am interested in the other person is his acceptance. In other words i am not interested in other people and what they have to say. I have noticed this part about me before, but i always thought it was because I have a very bad case of social phobias. But when i read these forums i see people with similar or even worse problems than i have and they dont seem to have problems offering support for others. I live in my other little world where there is nothing else except my own problems and nothing else is real or important. Then i go on bitching and moaning how i have no friends even though i obviously am a total douchebag with mental health problems.