I went to bed last night wondering if I could wrap something around my <Mod Edit:*music*:Methods>. Wondered if I would fall asleep like a black out or stay awake long enough for the discomfort to change my mind. I've <Mod Edit:*music*:Methods> but I wasn't strong enough to last until I passed out. The discomfort was to much. These are the thoughts that carry me to sleep. Am I strong enough to die. Can I find a way that will work. Luckily my resources are limited. I'm tired of trying to think of a way within my abilities to end it. Tired of the pain. Tired of a pointless struggle to keep life from crushing me. I have more than I can hold and desperately want to let go. I know I need to try but I'm getting pulled down by a force stronger than me. I'm out of strength, out of energy, and almost out of reasons to even care. Don't tell me 1 reason is enough. Not if there are a hundred reasons to give in.