I
I sit here wondering
Pondering
Thinking
On all that could have been
Would have been
Should have been
And still nothing changes
The beat continues forever on
Who am I to claim it's stillness?
For my own selfish heart
I tried to still the roiling depths
With an abundance of medications,
But failing that I find myself
Without the release of sleep
So where does this path end?
Where does the stillness lay,
Waiting with it's awful deeps?
Sleep, I cry to the morn's colors
Sleep is all I crave
But even that
Doesn't cut deep enough
To solve the underlying curse
Pondering
Thinking
On all that could have been
Would have been
Should have been
And still nothing changes
The beat continues forever on
Who am I to claim it's stillness?
For my own selfish heart
I tried to still the roiling depths
With an abundance of medications,
But failing that I find myself
Without the release of sleep
So where does this path end?
Where does the stillness lay,
Waiting with it's awful deeps?
Sleep, I cry to the morn's colors
Sleep is all I crave
But even that
Doesn't cut deep enough
To solve the underlying curse