I've been suffering from body acne (thanks DAD!) for all my adult years and it's made me look repulsive and it hurts like hell actually and I won't even take my shirt off in public unless I absolutely have to (for health reasons like getting sufficient vitamin D but I don't overdo it) and even still I do it reluctantly and dread it because I've been picked on (pun not intended) for it and women find me repulsive of course (doubled with the fact I'm piss-poor, a misfit and practically a midget.) I've done everything I can; short of taking accutane or sebum steroids. I eat healthier than anyone I know besides my mom, have been getting lots more sleep lately, exercise more than regularly including cardio, shower VERY frequently at LEAST every day, don't smoke, don't drink, RARELY drink coffee or energy drinks, severely cut down on dairy and I don't even drink milk anymore, tried all sorts of creams, soaps, ... while I know people who don't take care of themselves, drink and smoke enough to kill a small elephant, don't shower and are insomniacs and their skin looks perfect... hell I even tried seeing a dermatologist... TOTAL waste of my time and money and just made the problem worse and made me hate the medical industry even more than I already do. I dream of being an actor (since entertaining people is the only piece of shit talent whatever fucked up evil repulsive fuckery created me) and this problem has crushed my dreams and any smidge of confidence I might have ever had. I think of suicide every single day because of this and most of my days are spent searching for methods and thinking of what to write in my suicide letter. I hate having gotten all the garbage genes from my damn selfish, over-indulgent, naive parents who should've just had my older brother and been happy they could have A child instead of feeling they needed another one simply "because everyone else does it." Anyways, does anyone know of anything I can do or am I fucked (or not-fucked actually) and doomed to be a pizza-back for the rest of my worthless existence? Odd place to ask, but I'm desperate and just about ready to take the accutane plunge. I mean, I'm suicidal anyways and ready to die before 30, so it's not like I give a damn about the side effects anyways... but is there anything I might have missed?