Bad Timing

[lightning05]

I've been really sick for the past couple of days but my job has been on top of me for missing days. I have genuinely been consistently sick these past couple of months and I have gotten a barrage of tests to figure out why. I am not faking it and I now have anxiety because it's Halloween. So I look like I am calling in to party. I have doctor's notes so at least that helps my case. I was sick enough to go to urgent care.. I just have so much anxiety around looking like a bad person. I work in the "back" so a lot of my work goes unnoticed, if that makes sense. I want to talk to my supervisor privately and work an extra day to make up for it because I don't want to lose the pay. I feel like I have to prove myself all of the time and am so stressed about it, but I don't know if that's appropriate to share. I'm having a mini panic attack but also feel like I need to cry it out at the same time. Thanks for reading.

 

[may71]

Sorry to heat that you are going through this.

You might be able to get vocational assistance for people with disabilities. They might be able to help you figure out what you should or shouldn't divulge to your supervisor, and how to manage things in general.

I wish it were just ok to tell an employer that you have a disability, but that's not always the case.

 

[Petal]

Hi there, being genuinely sick you should not feel bad over. Explain to your boss everything you have said here. I hope your anxiety decreases and soon. You're not alone. I hope you feel better soon and get back to work feeling good in yourself when you can (hugs)

 

[lightning05]

I kind of freaked out for no reason (thanks a lot, anxiety!) A couple of people told me I still looked sick and one person even jokingly asked me to stay away from me. I also barely have a voice and when I talked to my supervisor he said that he knows I'm a hard worker and would never fake being sick to get out of work. Besides, I had doctor's notes. He said he thinks I might be worrying too much and that him and our GM is pleased with my work and I have proven myself a long time ago.

I guess the bigger issue is me learning how to tell when anxiety is making it seem like everything is falling apart. Lately I have been overthinking and stressing about small things. I've been experimenting with meditation and yoga to try and work on calming myself down.

 

[SillyOldBear]

@lightning05 I understand what you are going through. I have missed quite a bit of time due to health reasons lately. Even worked Saturdays to try and make some of it up. When I let HR lady know what was going on she just explained how much time I could miss before they canceled my insurance. And they are looking at totally changing our insurance for next year so I might not even be able to see the same doctors. Although, at this point I am pretty fed up with them and wouldn't mind seeing someone new. Employers are all about the bottom line. What the company can make. They don't really give a damn about employees any more. Good luck to you.

 

[Petal]

Hoping today is a better day for you Thinking of you.

 

[lightning05]

@SillyOldBear Yeah my company definitely can care less about my overall well being and health, unfortunately. So as long as I cover my butt with doctor's notes I'm okay. But it's gotten to the point where I have to have a doctor's note for everything now (because of missing so much time). It just sucks that their first instinct is to think you are faking. I feel like unless someone has given you a reason to believe that, that shouldn't even be on their minds. I still feel like shit and am working Saturday to make up for it now, too. I feel your pain. Best of luck to you, too!

@Petal thank you and thanks for always being awesome