hey nuage, i feel for what u say since am in the same boat, i feel to miserable to list what im living with, and it really is diminishing for the soul
Feel i never got a chance at life solaly based on my looks (im female btw),
Funny thing is it gave me a different view too
I cant stand all the falseness and hypocrisy society has and makes me really apathetic about people (not just their attitude twords my looks).
Am pretty sure ugliness is the last social taboo remaining.
I did not hear one head on shoulders opinion about it my whole life. All people seam to be able to produce is either animalistic attitudes or standard hypocrisy about how its all about the bodyless soul and what a great bodyless soul u can be but refuse to. Im seriously yet to hear anything resembling soul down there when i get told the fact this source of isolation and abuse is not supposed to hinder my personality and they way i relate to people and treat them.
And by the amount of stupid attitudes u can tell its a serious issue.
Sorry to bring all the bad news but turns out it comes with minor to major health issues or imbalances most of times, they usually go unnoticed unless ur well off or a health freak....
Thats kinda what sets the difference between average looking and ugly
They way u describe yourself you probably should look into it, not just the fungus but other stuff that may lower your immune system.
Ull find in history quite a lot of people got serious social issues solely based on looks,though it takes quite some research to find those
spects of their life. As much as i see it takes a lot of egocentrism and cynism to overcome such issues.
One of them is George Elliot and it marked her whole life, even if making her a great writes in an era when woman where supposed to be social and vulgar by rule....so great but she was pretty miserable.
This being sayed some do make a liveing out of it
Check out Andy Warhole s biography, he was ill as a kid and outcast and dunno if its mentioned in wiki but he was all gray at around 14 (he also appears with white hair in most of hes photos). Hes considered one of the fathers of modern advertising, and spent all hes adult life around celebrities, maybe due to hes fascination with fame and social icons.....all hes work is around that.
But personally, by now, id have peace of mind any day over whatever world class achievements. Anyway i think ur lucky at least u r a guy.
oh wanted to say good luck with the job, im also trying to get a job and hopefully take batter care of myself with the money