I posted a while back about having suicidal thoughts for over a year. I have tinnitus along with depression and anxiety and some other medical issues. I am no longer able to work and have applied for disablity, last week I had to go to a pscyh doctor for a required exam (not my regular doctor). I cried through the whole thing but I dont think I conveyed to the doctor just how bad I feel. But regardless my thoughts of suicide are growing stronger as the last several weeks have gone by, mainly due to my tinnitus getting worse and losing interest in life. My daughter is getting married in one week, I have got to try and hang on for her and my wife, but I feel certain that after the wedding I am going to give up and end it all. I know it will devastate my wife and daughter but I cant live with this emotional pain any longer. I see my regular doctor this week, Im afraid if I tell him the truth about my feelings he will hospitalize me and Ill miss my daughters wedding. I am so down right now I dont care about myself anymore.