I ran myself a bath and lay there in the warm water in the dark. Usually a bath is something of comfort but it didn't ease my pain. I had a razor beside me on the edge of the tub. One thing I've realized is that everyday is a roller coaster ride constantly ups and downs. Fairly normal for those who've been through what I have so I've been told. The only difference is there are now ups and brief moments of happiness and relaxation. Before there was none of that. Live another day of pain...one after the ohter..all I want is for him to see the pain he's caused.