I know i'm probably going to upset a few people but i'm in a quandry! my gf's dad recently commited suicide and she is gutted as am I but I can't get over it. iv'e had my own problems in the past and have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder which doesn't help but I can't help but feel agitated by her fathers actions. may be because he succeeded where I failed or maybe because he's potentially knackered up my gf's life and also her families. he was not your typical stereotype for suicide, meaning he was sucessfull and had money, cars, stuff etc...in all fairness, he seemed quite happy but it's annoyed me by a rediculous amount because he never seeked help or let on his intentions, not even to his closest family. I have personally known and been close to 3 people who have took their lives and it seems i'm a magnet for it. i'm on medication for my own illness but these "incidents" put me back to square one, mentally. Maybe i need therapy, sent to the nuthouse again or even putting down. i'll make a vet's appointment. it just seems that when you get your life sorted, something pulls you down a peg or two. i'm not religious but if god exists, he's having a right laugh at my expense and if i do go to heaven, i'm gonna pull his wings off!!! sorry for the rant and the people iv'e probably upset by this post.