Look, I dont have the qualifications to be on here. I've never hung myself or taken too many pills. But I can count at least 5 times I've seriously looked at the shower curtain rod and pulled my dressing gown chord to test it for strength. I'm here because I know I'm only a step away from doing something stupid. I was looking on the internet how many pills I'd have to take to say goodbye and I found you (Jeeez, there's no decent info on the internet these days). When I got in here just now, I found people in the shout box who said Hi! That made me feel better. I'm not a loon or anything, just a bit of a mess at the moment. I have a good job that I'm hanging on to with my fingertips. I'm 32, alone and in a really desolate place.